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Restored Identity in Christ

Updated: Jan 16

Ephesians 2: 1, 4-5: As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions– it is by grace you have been saved.

As a kid I couldn’t wait to move out and be free. The idea of doing whatever I wanted with no one telling me what to do seemed like such a great idea. Until I did it. I quickly found that life has a way of throwing curve balls at us. The fairy tales we created in our minds were not exactly the way things in life occur. So at 18 I became a teen mom. I rooted my identity in being a mother as well as a girlfriend in the abusive relationship I was in with his father. I tried to control every circumstance around me so I could feel safe. This leads to constant turmoil, pain, fear, and anxiety. I found myself in constant frustration asking God “why me, what did I do to deserve this?” All I wanted was to be truly loved, valued, accepted and cared for. Yet things kept getting worse. I tried my best to stay. I would tell myself I can make it until he turns 18. I will sacrifice myself and my happiness as long as the kids are taken care of. I think I may have really stayed if it wasn’t for God. One day as I made dinner my ex pushed me in our kitchen and I fell backwards and hit my head on the wall. This shook me to my core. As he stood above me yelling I could see my son crying through his legs. And God told me “this is hurting him more than you leaving.”

So I packed our bags and moved across the country. This was one of the scariest things I

had ever done. The enemy has a way of kicking you when you are down. He consistently

would tell me “No one will ever love you. You will always be alone.” 10 years after I left God

showed me he loves me, he values me, he will always accept and care for me. I did not need

to depend on the relationships around me to fill me. I am now a mother of three beautiful

gifts from God and have an amazing husband. My life is what I dreamed of all those years

ago but it took me surrendering all of my hurts, and uprooting that identity I thought would

keep me stable. And replacing it with God’s truth. Christ is my firm foundation and my

identity is now rooted in him. I encourage anyone who is struggling to turn to him. Cry out to

him. He is a good, good father and truly does care for us. His grace will fill in any gaps and

We are never alone!

Amanda Bengston

Prayer Team Lead

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